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My Reflection, My Shadow

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Emerald-Alexandria

Published: Mar 16, 2011

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To my Reflection
A shadow of my existence,
Staring through the looking glass.
Lying to me,
Mocking me,
Jeering with a smile,
With a Completion I wish was mine.
I lay in bed,
Peering through the black, still, nothingness,
And lie through my clenched, chipping teeth.
"This reflection is me."
But it isn't.
I am shattered.
The reflection whispers
Through my mind,
Into the night
"You cannot see the true you.
Only a Shadow...Shadow...Shadow..."
And I cry.
Because my lying reflection speaks the truth.
Because I cannot see what is wrong with me,
Only a superficial reflection
Of the lie I display for those I love.
Of a person I know longer am,
Of the truth I used to be.
I am nought but a reflection.
But a Shadow.

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My reflection stares at me after my shower. I stand there vulnerable and unclothed, no pretenses or appearances or expectations flaunted on display. My makeup is running. My heavy false smiles falls away. Am I still Beautiful? Am I still Me? Because I can no longer tell with no one watching. I can no longer tell who I am. I have no idea what to expect from myself.
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NotenSMSK

Jul 26, 2012

This was deep and somewhat normal coming from you

I liked the idea; you have kept it a bit obscure in the poem and you have explained it in the description. A poem should explain itself. So see if you can make such changes. and you should look pretty after a shower no? I don;t think you are fat

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